Blueprint? No Thanks!

“For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what he already has? But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently. In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God’s will.”
Romans 8:24-27

I’ve decided that I’m not so sure I want to see the entire blueprint of God’s will for my life. So many times I ask God questions quizzing Him on my future while trying to figure out His huge plan. I know that I want His will for my life at all times and that I must seek Him. But I’ve realized how easy it is to ask and seek out of selfishness. As long as these are my motivations I’m guaranteed to miss the big picture. I think I’m at the point where I am truly satisfied with where I am right now. But the struggle is to be completely satisfied with where my future stands. I’m a planner…I’m detailed oriented….I like to have everything all laid out and carefully pieced together. Obviously…this is where I struggle. There are so many questions I have concerning what tomorrow will bring about. It’s like I want a forecast of my future. The verses above are probably some of my favorite and the spark of my current thoughts. ‘Hope that is seen is no hope at all.’ I understand that the second God would go ahead and give me a brief overview of what’s to come…I’m bound to take things upon myself and run with what He told me. For this reason, I know God is only giving me pieces at a time. He’s teaching me patience and absolute reliance on Him…not on what I can achieve and plan. I’m thrilled to think of the many paths I will one day travel. However, I’m even more thrilled to experience growth as I have complete faith in the Lord and entrust my all to Him.